My Testimony

Hey! I thought that since I'm telling you about God. I might as well tell you about what God has done in my life. I've given you some snippets and stuff about my life, but this is my full testimony of my struggle for salvation and struggle with my family.
I was born into a relaxed Buddist family. Mom and Dad didn't really care about what we had to do to be good Buddists. My grandparents are more into the Buddist religion, but really our family is a mix of atheism and Buddism. Yeah, now you're wondering how a Christian can out of that mix. Well, I have to admit. I don't think I became a Christian until August 31, 2010. I had bunches of troubles with Christianity. One, I was always reminded that I went to BJ for the schooling and not the religion. Two, I was already a morally good person even has a one year old. I just sat still and played with my toys so taking care of me was easy. During my elementary school years, I thought that I was saved, then I didn't, then I did. I couldn't stay sure for long. I supposedly said a prayer back in K5, but there are no details so I'm beginning to think that I imagined the whole event. I then asked my 2nd grade teacher to help me. I sadly unintentionally fooled her into thinking that I was saved. She gave me a verse to boost my confidence in my salvation which I now realize wasn't existing at the time. The pattern continued but was more spread out now. In sixth grade, I wrote a paper about how I supposedly got truely saved during Bible. I even shead tears! I look back at that and see that I wasn't truely sorry. I just felt a spring of guilt that didn't last throughout the next day. I even tried to get my homeroom teacher's about the tesimony I wrote. I know I was trying to get attention. I was trying to get people to praise me because I found God. I wrote another testimonial during hte beginning of the year of seventh grade. Evne then, I tought that I was saved. It wasn't until a guest speaker at Bible conferrence preached about it that I really got the meaning. I really understood the meaning of daily reading in God's word. I realized the importance of t. I realized the selfishness that I was consumed in. Strangely, I've got stage fright, but I crave praise and attention. I still do, but now, I can catch it. I have a yearning for God's word and a desire to see my parents saved. I managed to lead my brother to salvation, but I just feel relief that God saved him. I didn't really do much. I just told him the basics. I am still having struggles with my parents because they dislike my constant Bible reading. I refuse to give it up. A few days out of the word and I have done tons of sins all ready. I can feel that I'm drifting from the way now. I've changed. I now am sure that I'm saved because of that change, but have you felt that life changing joy and relief that salvation brings? I pray for you to feel what I've felt. Trust me. It's worth your time. It's worth your heart. We have an end that is better than anything that we can imagine.